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Overwhelmed

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Curlers and all, love my mom! 

It’s been a while.

Life is sometimes overwhelming. After Mama died in May, days became chaotic, stressful, and anxiety-filled. Nights were often sleepless, filled with memories of 56 years with Mama or constantly making to-do lists. Grieving took a back seat to facing and surviving each day.

How was I to know that cooking beets would remind me of canning beets with my mom? I was always the beet peeler. Or that walking on the stepping stones she and dad made years ago with our names on top would take me right back to our Wapato home?  Or how my wedding anniversary would bring me to tears because my mama always remembered our big day? She painstakingly made my wedding dress and several bridesmaid dresses. I didn’t realize that, now, every time I drive to the apartment of my grands, I would have to pass the Cottage where she passed away. The memories keep her close to my heart, but that heart is full of aches and pains.

Each day is new to the process. All four of our parents have passed on to Heaven. They are having a great time. But that doesn’t stop me from missing them. We are now the oldest and the NEXT to go (in the natural order of things, not counting for surprises). And we both have the hope and faith that we will see them again when it’s our time to go.

“Any-who.” As my mother-in-law always said. “That’s life.”

But life takes it out of you sometimes.

I’m back. Slowly and steadily, taking one day at a time. Still missing Mama.

Life altering circumstances or situations do, well, alter your life. Have you had any life events that deeply impacted your life? How did you survive and continue on living your life?

Author: Angie

I live with my husband and crazy kitty. Much of my time is spent writing, reading, and playing with the grands. You can usually find me sipping tea or coffee, nibbling on dark chocolate, and contemplating what to plant next in the garden. If not those pursuits, then I am probably trying to figure out how to cook and live in an RV, creating cards with rubber stamps, walking, hiking, or out snapping photos with my camera.

4 thoughts on “Overwhelmed

  1. It isn’t an easy journey this life. Sending lots of love and grieving our loss!

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  2. Grief is so hard to come back from, at least for me. When I lost my husband, I found myself grieving for him, but my sister who had died five years earlier too. I joined a grief support group through Hospice that helped me a lot through my darkest time. I also made new friends through that group and a widow/widowers support group. Sometimes it helps to talk to people I understand.

    it’s been five years for me, and I am just starting to feel like I can go on better. I’m glad you have your husband and family to get through your own grief. Feel free to e-mail me anything you need to talk.

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    • Thanks so much, Natalie. Yes, mom’s passing brought back my dad’s passing (2 years ago), my mother-in-law’s passing (1 year ago), and my father-in-law’s passing (I think about 7 years ago). You have great suggestions. Thank you! I’ll remember your offer. And I do remember you sharing that you lost your husband. I can’t imagine the difficulty of facing that loss. Hugs to you!

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